Charls

noinconvenience has grown

2008-01-01T22:23:00.000Z

As of now, I am now charldawn.wordpress.com

Thank you

New Years Eve

2007-12-31T14:59:00.000Z

I can't believe how fast this year has gone! I remember the first three months just flew by, and the rest, I really gotta sit down and think about what I did. Anyway, I was comparing wordpress.com to blogspot.com, which ones better? I was thinking of moving, but then again, I've only been on blogspot for how long? Not even a month right? So yea, I guess for now I'll stay firmly where I am. I've spent the day so far making lecheplan and meringues, 2 hours in the oven! Its still cooking right now.

Heres an recap of my year so far, in pictures... I really want to find those survey things about 2007 as a year so far.

January

February

March

April

May

June

July

August

September

October

November

Oh I got fed up of this blog...

Pictures

2007-12-30T12:36:00.000Z

Nothing really to blog about. Maybe that I long for a beautiful diary - a nice thick book that has an elastic going down it where I can write at my most angerful, hurtful times when no-one is there for me. EMO TALK! Haha I did the sillyest thing ever and put all my clothes in the machine, and I went out the next day in um a very emo looking outfit hahah, randomest baggy jeans, school converse and like a side bag filled with books lol. Anyway, pictures from recently..

I am Legend - A great film, the only thing that I hated was that it was so sad at the end. WHY DID HE HAVE TO DIE! Opps spoiler hehe

Tenacious D - Funny film, but not a family film LOL. Sorry, I did not mean to blow your minddddddd

A Bah Humbug to you too!

2007-12-25T23:30:00.000Z

Merry Christmas everyone! I hope you all had a better celebration than I did.

There are no pictures to support my anger, disappointment and sheer sadness I currently feel 29 minutes before the end of Xmas day. I thought I would wake up, run downstairs and open the awaiting presents under my tree, however, I woke up from a bad but cool dream knowing that I had nothing for me downstairs.

Ok so its not all about presents, its about family and spending time together. I attempted that on Xmas Eve, got some response, but not what I wanted. I wanted it today, I got zero response. Instead, I had a day of being around people who did not even want to or attempted to engage in the festive spirit of Xmas. GR. Why couldn't my immediate family (2 children, 2 parents) spend Xmas day at home alone, laughing about stuff, clearing up the mess from last night, eating left overs, watching all the good movies on tv. From the Xmas day I had today, that would have made my day.

Charlotte please remember to :
ignore those who give zero respect to you, those who don't even say your name or even say Merry Xmas to you who you thought was someone in your life
(Does that make sense, the mixed emotions running through me makes my words all jumbled up)

On a brighter note, my Xmas eve and Xmas day meals were so yummy, and so un-Xmasy. Lasagne, chips, duck, roast potatoes, pancit, spare ribs.

*intervalofsobbingdownthephone*

Christmas was not all about spending time with family this year in the way that I wanted, but there's always next year!

24th December

2007-12-24T13:35:00.000Z

Ive just come back from Braintree yesterday after checking out Ninangs new house. Tonight we're celebrating Xmas Eve at ours, having our feast coming up towards midnight like they do in Fili =)

Braintree is cool, just its all um mainly non-ethnic minority people, and whilst walking home in the evening, some drunk white girls start making chinese sounds and putting their hands together and bowing.GR.People are so ignorant and stupid. Sigh of relief when I drive back into London, where wherever I turn, theres a mix of people who don't put their noses up whenever they see someone who isn't white.

Anyway, Happy Xmas Eve!

Ah I highly recommend Osu! Tatakae! Ouendan, its Japanese, the sequel is Elite Beat Agents, but I prefer the Ouendan.

Update

2007-12-19T18:29:00.000Z

I haven't blogged for a while coz Ive been running around like mad with mocks and weddings and debuts sheesh.

All its been is stress, not enough time and late nights.But hey only 2 days left of school and then its straight into holidays, revision, filming, revision, eating! I never realised 2nd year A levels would be so hard, considering the 1st year just flew by. This has been the longest first term, but these past 2/3 weeks, Ive really hard to work hard to meet deadlines. Today my personal statement was finally approved WOO/Sigh of relief/smile to myself!

What am I looking forward to? Fridays Xmas Panto put on by the teachers!

Anyway back to work, Media 2000 words due in tomo, 600 word down!

26 Months to this day

2007-12-15T19:10:00.000Z

I waited endlessly for the arrival of my Lonny, washing up, cooking breakfast, getting back into bed. After about 1 hour, he calls..

Him : Beb im stuck in West ham

Me : Huh?

Him : I'm in west ham. Im still here

Me : Oh ok should we just leave it

Him : (interrupting me) Just joking, open the door

Me : Ohhhhh, no, just knock

Him : Open the door

Me : Fine

I hate it when he does that. I open the door to him smiling excitedly. I am semi angry at his joke, but happy to see him, and he hands me this..

Oh wahh *smiling smiling smiling* Hugs Lon tightly every now again.

Update from last night :

Whilst blogging, Rousselle was laying down on the sofa watching Simpsons and Lon was lying on the floor sleeping and dribbling, I was reading peoples blog, reading Metro online, checking emails, watching videos. Prior to that, I left college early as me n ice had nothing to do in Media. Sigh on the bus, I could not find my house keys and looked frantically for them, researching pockets which I undoubtedly knew did not hold my keys. I text my mum, and she called back. I explained my situation and she said she felt sorry for me. Sigh, this meant I could not go home to change to go out tonight. AHh I had to go out in my tracksuit and pajama top that I was hiding underneath my jacket. Grr de grr. Got off early and decided just to make my way to Lons house. Sat in that lonely 1 seat at the front on the 149, just thought to make the most of my long journey.

Anyway, after several hours (over exaggeration) on the train, getting my eyebrows done and waiting for Lon at the station in a suspicious manner, I see an Oriental boy. I joke around in my head saying "Oh look theres lon *giggles*" Then he makes eye contact with me, my brain makes a synoptic link to something, he points at me and smiles. I hide behind the paper i stole from the art room. It turns out to be Jason, someone who I just started chatting to online and turns out to be my partner for Rachels debut. Ahh DEJAVU, this same situation happened about 2 years ago. SO yea, we get chatting about boyfriends, girlfriends, the Debut, me not able to get home and change, him having no idea where his girlfriend lives haha. I laugh but still continue to be semi embarrassed. This is the first time Ive seen him in real life and am relieved that he is taller than me.

He tells me hes going, and I in my mind say, when we leaves Lon will come. And of course when he turns around and exits, Lon comes running. This always happens, whenever Im waiting around for Lon, some random guy or in this case a guy appraoches me making conversation, and as soon as they leave, Lon arrives. Haha. I am put in a hyper mood, and we spend the next few hours laughing, eating, napping, dancing and bogging around at home. We dive into his cupboard looking for an appropiate outfit for tonight, and end up contemplating whether we should go.

My reasons for going :
1. its Aarons birthday
2. He made a reservation and I said we are going for sure
3. I want to see everyone again because its been too damn long
4. I told Kiran to go, so how could I not turn up myself

Lons reasons for going :
1. Its Aarons birthday
2. Baby want to go

So we are back to the beginning, me on the PC waiting. it comes to about 8ish and they arrive. I open the door and greet everyone and wake up the sleeping siblings. I am semi disappointed that I didnt get to go out. But I cant just leave, they just arrived and everyone probably would have finished eating at Aroma, so I decide not to bother. We spend the rest of the night, eating, talking, opening gifts, trying out Japanese foods, taking pictures and laughing.

Take notice of my Voodoo doll, me and Lon have one each =)

Was that just the longest ever, I just recalled everything I did like a loser hahah. Whatever, who reads this? Comment , so I dont retreat back to my bed after blogging thinking whats the point? No one has come accross this blog so why do I bother...

Do not continue reading if your name is not Marlon..

Happy 2 years and 2 months Anniversary

Sigh

2007-12-14T19:25:00.001Z

I should be out at Aroma but Im stuck at Lons, I dont mind just I did wanna go...il update later

Amazing

2007-12-12T14:54:00.001Z

Early Xmas present

2007-12-11T20:46:00.000Z

Bought myself these after I talked about them non stop after I saw them on Sunday...

The best thing : 20% off and coincidently the sales woman put them through as £15 instead of £20 =) They are so worth £12

Of course I tried them on as soon as I got home

Currently listening to :

Enur Feat Natasja - Calabria 2007
Jagged Edge feat Voltio : So Amazing
Dj Shadow : Building steam with a grain of salt
Debelah Morgan : Close to you
Chris Brown : Poppin
Chris Brown : Damage
Trey Songz : Role Play
Timbaland feat One Republic : Apologize
Bow Wow feat Omarion : Girlfriend

I want...

2007-12-09T20:27:00.000Z

Ahh just browsing on Topshop website and I come accross this...

Hooded Jacket £50.00

and this..

Hooded Jacket £60.00 now £40.00

Oh man!

Procrastination and Reminiscing

2007-12-09T16:48:00.000Z

What a stressful food shopping trip today. Got so bloddy stressed coz the family just dont move at the same pace. My dad and I are paying and my mum and sis are strolling around, while I run and call them over, yet they continue to talk about irrelavant stuffs GRR de GRR.

So Im "taking a break" from revision right now, after looking for paper in my old folders and reading bits from my old notebooks and stuff. Gosh I was so naive and shallow when I was younger. I never realised how much I've changed, but still continue to be so irrational at times.

Extract from my regret list
"i regret buying so and so shoes when I should have bought so and so shoes
i regret looking ugly when i did
i regret crying at so and so time
i regret not talking to so and so when I saw them"

I duno, reading that I felt so stupid, was that really what my mind was thinking at 12/13 years of age. (OMG just noticed one of my bangles are broken)

But on a more positive note, looked through my Year 11 Year book, I totally forgot I was voted prettiest, person who eats the most, most likely to win Miss World and Poser of my class haha. I swear no one even noticed me LOL. Ahh it made me smile though, I miss those uniform days, all those discoveries we made in our classroom, the days we bunked off, the stupid arguements between girls, the time people thought I broke this girls leg coz I tackled her at hockey. Oh, never realised how good school life was. Which is why, the last year of sixth form, I intend to get presents for the girls who have just been there =)

Damn I missed Ugly Betty replay so I downloaded Channel 4 on demand and that did not work, so I am frantically looking for sites to watch it online.

I have officially deleted my old blog.. Goodbye u stupid the smallest limit ever after 4 days I hate you blog

Blog attempt number two!

2007-12-07T22:58:00.000Z

After blog attempt one and going over my monthly limit in just over a week on blog.com I realised that was not the blog site for me, and have now moved to um, here, where if I read correctly, the limits are much bigger, resulting in more blog posts from me =)

I guess I treat my blog like a diary, but not going so personal and into detail, I mean anyone can read this, anyone can start taking my identity and start spending my non-existant fortunes and charging it to my non-existant triple platinum visa card hahah.I made this blog to have a small part in this tangled, extensive web of pages located in the blinking lights of my wireless. For those of you that will come across my blog, hi, hello, how are you?

SO my plan for this weekend has so far gone to plan, but I have so much work to keep up to date with, falling behind is not a road I want to stroll down.

Aims for the next two weeks :

- I must revise for Secularisation (Sociology) on Tues
- I must regularly work on my Media Log book to reach that deadline
- I must complete my Media Music Video to ensure a less stressul Xmas holiday
- I must revise for Sociology Mock
- I must complete Art coursework to produce a fantastic piece of work for Art Mock

I am finally putting in the recommended hours for school work, and quite possibly more, and frankly, on friday nights, I sigh with relief for I have worked my ass off this week, and I cant wait for next week when I can cross more stuff off my list, get closer to Xmas and to exams so I can pass with flying colours.

On a last note - I am not that fond of eating out, buffets are so greasy I got a headache so quickly tonight, I did not enjoy my meal as much as I loved what I wore. I think I prefer my pinakbet